I aged 10 years.
I'm fat and out-of-shape for starters. You can't see it here, but my skin is somehow dry and oily at the same time? I have blemishes all over my face and jawline. My complexion is dull. My hair is dry and frizzy.
My emotional state is no better. I'm depressed and tired. My motivation is non-existent. I have insomnia and mood-swings. I've become a social recluse. I feel so awful about myself I just don't want to be seen.
I've been seeking some professional help and it was suggested that I might have a food addiction. At first, I pshawed at the suggestion. I thought (and I think I said) "Food addiction? Like, who doesn't have that, seriously?"
But, the more I've looked into it, the more I'm convinced that there may be some truth to this idea. I had parents who were alcoholics and addicts, so addictive behavior does run in my family...
I was given a food plan to follow, and today is my second day in. I'm using this blog to keep track of my progress and post the foods I'm eating every day. I'm hoping that posting this will keep me honest and hold me accountable.
I'm at my heaviest weight ever.
I made sure to make extra so that I would have enough to last me for lunches throughout the week. (When I'm pressed for time and stressed, I make really poor food choices.) I had some Kashi 7-Grain Pilaf on the side and some carrots cooked with ginger in coconut oil. YUM!